"My momma always said, you have to put the past behind you before you move on. That's what I think my running was all about."
For 8 years now, "I've just felt like running."
I've run off the baby weight and mommy stress.
I've run for work and for play.
A soulmate through death, divorce and heartache, running was at my side.
I would even go as far to say that running was my savior.
I've run many miles in the name of finding myself.
Running was the drug to numb the pain, and it has been a fun ride!
But I am no longer dependent on that high.
I stressed my body, was crazy without my fix, and became obsessed with results.
I have given up many hours sleep and opportunities to have fun.
I have literally tortured myself in the name of discipline.
It's so cool what the body and mind can do. Our bodies are freaking amazing! I will always be grateful to running for showing me my strong.
"I'm pretty tired. I think I'll go home" after Leadville.
As Waylon Lewis says: "I am wearily desperate to just be."
Saturday, April 23, 2016
Friday, April 8, 2016
I want to be happy, just like I am tonight.
I want to eat brie with honey while drinking crisp chardonnay.
I want to gasp at the crown of the mountain, not for lack of oxygen, but in utter awe of it's beauty.
I want to huddle up with my kids while watching a movie, eating butter drowned popcorn.
I want to sleep at the elbow of my love, breathing in the intoxicating scent at the back of his neck.
I want bubble baths and warm blankets and long kisses.
I want fresh cut flowers wrapped in paper and jalapeno chocolate with peanuts.
I want Italy, and Spain and Costa Rica; Peru, Brazil and Patagonia.
Zion, Bryce Cannon and Leadville; Yellowstone, Yosemite and Jackson Hole.
I want to hold a big fat burger in my left hand and a hoppy beer in my right after a day on the slopes;
And to fall into bed exhausted after a day of adventure in the canyons.
I want finish lines. All of them.
I want to exhale anxiety and inhale blessing.
To bathe in security and wash away doubt
To Dance and sweat.. To Run and swim.
To sing too loudly so as to embarrass my kids.
To fall hard. To get back up.
To Trust. To Trust. To Trust.
To trust that today and everyday
is always completely