Monday, December 30, 2013

My New Year's resolution? Stop trying to fix yourself.

"And when you smile
 The whole world stops and stares for a while
'Cause girl you're amazing

 Just the way you are"
Bruno Mars

For years, I have written New Years Resolutions that I believed would make me healthier, stronger, faster, more organized, patient, loving and happy.  One year it was diet, the next year I would BQ.  In 2011 I swore I would be more organized.  2012 was a year to give fully to others and 2013 was a year for growth and change.
 Its natural that the turning of the calendar allows us to catch a glimpse of hope.  We envision a time to forgive and forget. We close doors and open others.  This is all good.

But this year, I'm taking a different approach.  I read a quote recently by Steve Maraboli that states "Stop trying to fix yourself.  You're not broken.  You are perfectly imperfect and powerful beyond measure."
In my soul- in my essential self, I know I am immaculate.  I recognize that I am a droplet in the universal ocean and that my life has an amazing and distinct purpose.

Do I always understand it?  No.
Do I question it?  Of course.
But this year I choose to BELIEVE that my life is perfectly imperfect just they way it is.  This year I choose to let go and trust that while I may be a beautiful mess, I am not damaged goods.
This year I choose to be powerful beyond all measure, and in return I am free.

Monday, December 23, 2013

Lighting the world with Love

"So now faith, hope, and love abide, these three; but the greatest of these is love."
1st Corinthians 13:3

When I was little, Christmas was momentous .
Our house was decorated in memorabilia from head to toe.   A godlike Santa gifted good little boys and girls  (and of course that would be us!) and our allegiance was always rewarded.
My family made sure the food was bountiful, the presentation was exquisite and the celebration jovial.  My mom loved Christmas, and she always made  sure the day was special.  I always thought Christmas was the most magical day of the year.  It was a time for tradition.  A time of significance.  A time of unadulterated  joy.  

I'll never forget the the first year that Christmas sucked.   My boyfriend had conveniently just broken up with me, my roommates went home for the holidays...and I was alone.  No Santa, no presents, and a baked potato for dinner.  Christmas, I believed, was a hoax.
Over the years I've learned that a "Holly, Jolly Christmas" is a myth to many. Moms are still lost to bone cancer at Christmas time.  Babies are still hooked up to monitors in the ICU during the holidays. Those living on the streets have no loved ones to dash through the snow to, and some children still ask why Santa never visits their house.  The "Christmas spirit" is a delusion to them.

But what if we could make people believe in Santa (aka mankind) again? 
The true Christmas Spirit is about giving of yourself to bring the most happiness to others.
I feel so blessed to have parents who taught me that I have a part in creating hope.
I create the celebration. I am Santa Claus.

  In The Book of Awakening Mark Nepo states that "like a candle, our wick of spirit is encased in our being, and when our spirit is touched, we light up until all we know melts and changes shape for the burn of our experience.  In such moments, we become one with what we see and experience an illumination of oneness called love."  Its up to us to create the experience.  It's up to us to love.
Light the world with the oneness of your love this holiday season and into the blessed new year.

Merry Christmas friends :) 

Sunday, December 8, 2013

For this moment- it's all good.

"Every moment and every event of every man's life on earth plants something in his soul."
Thomas Merton

Being in the moment......

Looks like the scarlet sun ascending majestically over the Grand Canyon.
Tastes like lingering kisses planted on yielding lips.
Sounds like the giggles of a 6 year old over a trite joke.
Feels like warm sunshine on your face and grainy sand between your toes. 
Smells like gingerbread fresh out of the oven; and strong coffee.
Leaves you breathless, intoxicated and alive.

Living in the moment is being wrapped in a warm blanket of faith; and realizing that here today, I am just so good.