Sunday, July 17, 2016

For God's sake- it's just running!

"The root of all suffering is attachment"

"I'd die if I couldn't run."
"I only finished 87 miles of my 100 mile race."
"I didn't PR"
"I only ran the half"
"My arm was falling off, but I should have kept going anyway....."

It's Sunday evening, and I'm saddened to see my Facebook page flooded with statuses like the quotes above.  So many people suffering via their attachment to running.

I've been there myself, beating myself up for not hitting my goal even though I had a fever of 101.  Being disappointed in not finishing a race, yet ending up with several stitches in my knee.   Pissed off because I came in 4th  place in my age group instead of third
Leaving a race feeling down instead of grateful.......

It's time to stop the madness. 
Being able to move our bodies through time and space in a mindful way is the gift of being human. 
Power, skill, fortitude....we make cool shit happen every day. 
Some people are exquisite artists.
Some people are  able to find "X" in the equation
Some people can cook a mean rib eye
and some people (the cool ones)  run. 
But we are also mothers and fathers, and lovers, and seekers, and gypsies. 
We gather, we feast, we pray and we protest. 
We help, and care, and give and listen. 

Running is such a small part of who we are. 
A very wise coach and friend once told me, "You are not defined by who you are as a runner.  You are defined by who you are as a person." 
Running, living, being....its a gift. 

Friday, July 8, 2016

Try the meditation. It's delicious.

"The thing about meditation is:
you become more and more you."
David Lynch

When you're floundering in the sea of anxiety you have two choices:
 sink or swim. 
It became clear that I was sinking when I felt work suffocating me, panic strangled  my relationships, and I choked on basic decision making.  I knew I better roll over and start doing the backstroke, or I would surely drown
I had an initial appointment with a therapist which went ok, but I kept hearing and reading about a technique called transcendental mediation- and I am a true believer that if you keep hearing or reading about something- you really should listen and check it out.  After going to the initial introductory class I knew this was something I wanted to explore, but I'm not going to lie, it was a bit much for my budget.  I had a choice.....2 months of therapy once a week, or 4 days of TM class. 
I chose meditation, and after only one week of 20 minutes twice a day, I am a believer. 

The TM technique is super easy.  The Mayo Clinic describes TM as " a simple, natural technique... This form of meditation allows your body to settle into a state of profound rest and relaxation and your mind to achieve a state of inner peace, without needing to use concentration or effort.
Thoughts come and go, and that's ok.  You're allowed to look at the clock every once in a while to see how you are doing on time.  You don't have to sit in a fancy pretzel position, and you are allowed to scratch your itch. 
I'm the girl who can't sit still- and I am starting to look forward to those restful moments every day. 

Every time you mediate, a layer of stress dissipates. 
I feel lighter and less reactive.   I have witnessed full potential and unlimited energy.  I am running better, sleeping through the night and am genuinely happy.  I know that everything will be ok.  Period. 

David Lynch compares TM to the sweetness of a donut:
"This is a donut.  It is very sweet and good, but if you've never really tasted a donut, you don't know how sweet it is.  Meditation is like that.  Transcendental meditation gives an experience much sweeter than the sweetness of a donut." 

I must admit friends- it's pretty damn tasty.  If  you want a bite, check out this website: