Wednesday, October 12, 2016

On Gratitude

"If the only prayer you said in your whole life was 'thank you',
that would suffice."
Meister Eukhart

Dear God-
Thank you . 

For those who make us smile, and our souls dance. 
For happily ever after, and fearless love. 

For lists, agendas and bills paid. 
For busy and complicated; for hurry up and wait. 

For chocolate birthday cake with sprinkles, bad jokes and karaoke.
For football games, and picnics and bonfires on the beach.

For persistence and endurance
For uncertainty and faith. 

For packing, for the journey, for adventure.
For hikes through crunchy leaves, bold Cabernets and Patagonia vests.

For Serenity.
For Freedom.
For dog breath. 

For children, and lovers
co-workers and best friends.

For this life, my life-
Thank you God.

Friday, October 7, 2016

What is your genius?

"You see, I believe that we are all capable of doing one thing better than any other person alive at this time in history."
Matthew Kelly

What is your genius? 
Do you know?  Are you too humble to say? 
Or maybe you are afraid that you are powerful beyond belief? 

I have a friend who is a genius at making everyone feel special.  She listens-  REALLY listens, and makes you believe that you are significant.  That you MATTER. 

Another friend is a genius at staying present.  He lives every day aware and with gratitude.  He knows that we live in a wonderful world, and that each moment is just as it should be.

I have a friend who is welcoming.  He takes pictures with everyone he runs with, and posts them on Facebook each week.  He never forgets a birthday.  You know when you are around him that he will accept you exactly as you are.  His love for humanity is endearing. 

Another friend is magic.  He shows you your power.  He pushes you to be your best, and accepts nothing less.  He is encouraging and loving.  He talks as much as he listens.  He believes in you, and thinks you are beautiful inside and out.

And there is that friend that is always there.  She's been through your shit with you, but she never questioned the choices you made.  She showed up- every single day, and she always texts to make sure you are ok. She doesn't judge or try to change you, she just loves. 

I know a school teacher who is a genius.  The kids hang on to her every word.  They participate in classroom activities with excited smiles on their faces.  They love her.  They would do anything for her.  They enjoy learning every single day. 

And I am a genius at inspiring others. I remind you who you are and what you are capable of.  I will climb the highest mountain or jump out of an airplane for you.  I work hard, but have fun.  I try new things, set new goals and put myself out there. I believe you can do or have anything that your heart desires, and I'll show you the way.  I am passionate for adventure and want you to be the best version of yourself every day. I learn from the life that I live, and in turn love the life I live.

Matthew Kelly says you'll know you've found your genius when "you experience feelings of joy and timelessness."  You'll be in the flow.  You'll be happy.  You'll be rocking it!

Come on- you know what your genius is!
Now live to be the best version of yourself. 
Amazing is not reserved for others.

Tuesday, September 27, 2016

The Magical Powers of Running Shoes

"I always thought of running as just dancing forward."
Tom Hiddleston

My running shoes are magical.

When I first put them on, it was to lose "baby weight", but they showed me that running was so much more than just exercise. 

They introduced me to hardworking, dedicated, like-minded people who inspired me to go farther, run faster and to challenge myself.  I hit the pavements in Dallas, soared through red rocks in Utah, escaped seaside in California, chased flying pigs in Cincinnati, and scrambled up Heartbreak Hill in Boston.

They've lead me through wooded trails so stunning that I thought fairies might pop out at any minute.  I've crossed canyons, climbed mountains and traversed plains.  I've plodded through mud pits, waded through waist-deep rivers and scrambled over jagged rocks. 

I've run with hippies, republicans and the homeless.  I've run alone and with groups. I've run with friends, my kids and my lovers. I've even run with famous people.
I've run fast, I've run slow.
I've won and I've lost. 
It's easy, its hard. 
I'm happy, I'm sad.

My running shoes are magical....they always encourage me to take the next step forward.

Sunday, September 25, 2016

On true friends, injury and breakups

"Two things you will never have to chase:
True friends, and true love."
Mandy Hale

There are two times in your life when you really find out who your friends are:
during a breakup, and during illness or injury. 

True friends are the ones that text to ask if you are ok.  They don't take sides.  They are non-judgmental, empathetic and understanding. They are not into drama, they are there for you. 

True friends are the ones that call you up and offer free swimming sessions.  They see if you want to ride or lift.  Sometimes you just go for a hike together, or they invite you to join them for their post run brunch.  They slow down for you.

True friends understand that you are in a heavy stage, and they help to take off some of the weight. 
They know.  They listen. 

True friends open their arms to you.  They don't pretend like nothing happened.  They don't pretend that you are not hurting.  They don't ignore the symptoms and assume that you will be ok.
They LOVE. 

Can you think of someone who needs your help? 
Don't make them chase you.  Be a true friend.

Sunday, September 18, 2016


"What day is it?" asked Pooh.
"It's today."  squeaked Piglet.
"My favorite day." said Pooh..
A.A. Mine
What makes the perfect day? 
Is it sunshine and smiling and kisses?
Awe, history and amazement?
Perhaps sex, wine and rock and roll?

What makes the perfect week?
Is it amazing food, conversation and laughter?
Movement, art and beauty?
People, passion, purpose?

What makes the perfect year?
Maybe serenity and abundance?
Faith, hope  and trust?

What makes the perfect life? 
Ah......That one's easy.
The answer is always- Love.

Wednesday, September 7, 2016

He loves me.....he loves me not.

"To LOVE, in the context of Buddhism, is above all to be there."
Thich Nhat Hanh

He loves me- and chooses me every day.
He loves me not- he is absent.

He loves me- and brings happiness to my life.
He loves me not-  I suffer.

He loves me- he understands my deepest troubles, my deepest inspirations.
He loves me not- he looks, but does not see.

He loves me- there is joy.
He loves me not- I am anxious.

He loves me- I am free. 
He loves me not- a caged bird. 

He loves me.   He is present.
He loves me. 

Monday, August 22, 2016

When your body gives you the finger.

"Fall down seven times- get up eight"
Japanese proverb

It's been a nose dive year of racing for me.  Literally.
A freak twisted ankle on an easy 3 mile run right before Bandera lead to my first ever DNF.
The next race I entered landed me with 5 stitches in my right knee and DNF #2.
Most recently, just weeks before Leadville, tendinitis creeped into that same ankle leaving it pissed off and swollen; and I was forced to swallow DNF #3.
3 races- 3 DNFs
So...... It makes you wonder what the hell is going on? Why do I keep tripping and falling?
What happened to the agile dance that used to come so naturally? What is my body trying to tell me?

Our ankles hold our entire weight, so perhaps if that load is too much- they simply collapse. . Maybe my left ankle has been holding up the red flag of surrender for 8 months now, and it finally said "Fuck you Jennifer.  I'm done."

We know that fear, insecurity and emotional overload manifests in our body.
I think maybe its time to untwist, redirect, and find a better support system.
Maybe its time to find a more solid ground? 
Or perhaps its time to practice dancing again.......