Tuesday, September 27, 2016

The Magical Powers of Running Shoes

"I always thought of running as just dancing forward."
Tom Hiddleston

My running shoes are magical.

When I first put them on, it was to lose "baby weight", but they showed me that running was so much more than just exercise. 

They introduced me to hardworking, dedicated, like-minded people who inspired me to go farther, run faster and to challenge myself.  I hit the pavements in Dallas, soared through red rocks in Utah, escaped seaside in California, chased flying pigs in Cincinnati, and scrambled up Heartbreak Hill in Boston.

They've lead me through wooded trails so stunning that I thought fairies might pop out at any minute.  I've crossed canyons, climbed mountains and traversed plains.  I've plodded through mud pits, waded through waist-deep rivers and scrambled over jagged rocks. 

I've run with hippies, republicans and the homeless.  I've run alone and with groups. I've run with friends, my kids and my lovers. I've even run with famous people.
I've run fast, I've run slow.
I've won and I've lost. 
It's easy, its hard. 
I'm happy, I'm sad.

My running shoes are magical....they always encourage me to take the next step forward.

Sunday, September 25, 2016

On true friends, injury and breakups

"Two things you will never have to chase:
True friends, and true love."
Mandy Hale

There are two times in your life when you really find out who your friends are:
during a breakup, and during illness or injury. 

True friends are the ones that text to ask if you are ok.  They don't take sides.  They are non-judgmental, empathetic and understanding. They are not into drama, they are there for you. 

True friends are the ones that call you up and offer free swimming sessions.  They see if you want to ride or lift.  Sometimes you just go for a hike together, or they invite you to join them for their post run brunch.  They slow down for you.

True friends understand that you are in a heavy stage, and they help to take off some of the weight. 
They know.  They listen. 

True friends open their arms to you.  They don't pretend like nothing happened.  They don't pretend that you are not hurting.  They don't ignore the symptoms and assume that you will be ok.
They LOVE. 

Can you think of someone who needs your help? 
Don't make them chase you.  Be a true friend.

Sunday, September 18, 2016


"What day is it?" asked Pooh.
"It's today."  squeaked Piglet.
"My favorite day." said Pooh..
A.A. Mine
What makes the perfect day? 
Is it sunshine and smiling and kisses?
Awe, history and amazement?
Perhaps sex, wine and rock and roll?

What makes the perfect week?
Is it amazing food, conversation and laughter?
Movement, art and beauty?
People, passion, purpose?

What makes the perfect year?
Maybe serenity and abundance?
Faith, hope  and trust?

What makes the perfect life? 
Ah......That one's easy.
The answer is always- Love.

Wednesday, September 7, 2016

He loves me.....he loves me not.

"To LOVE, in the context of Buddhism, is above all to be there."
Thich Nhat Hanh

He loves me- and chooses me every day.
He loves me not- he is absent.

He loves me- and brings happiness to my life.
He loves me not-  I suffer.

He loves me- he understands my deepest troubles, my deepest inspirations.
He loves me not- he looks, but does not see.

He loves me- there is joy.
He loves me not- I am anxious.

He loves me- I am free. 
He loves me not- a caged bird. 

He loves me.   He is present.
He loves me. 

Monday, August 22, 2016

When your body gives you the finger.

"Fall down seven times- get up eight"
Japanese proverb

It's been a nose dive year of racing for me.  Literally.
A freak twisted ankle on an easy 3 mile run right before Bandera lead to my first ever DNF.
The next race I entered landed me with 5 stitches in my right knee and DNF #2.
Most recently, just weeks before Leadville, tendinitis creeped into that same ankle leaving it pissed off and swollen; and I was forced to swallow DNF #3.
3 races- 3 DNFs
So...... It makes you wonder what the hell is going on? Why do I keep tripping and falling?
What happened to the agile dance that used to come so naturally? What is my body trying to tell me?

Our ankles hold our entire weight, so perhaps if that load is too much- they simply collapse. . Maybe my left ankle has been holding up the red flag of surrender for 8 months now, and it finally said "Fuck you Jennifer.  I'm done."

We know that fear, insecurity and emotional overload manifests in our body.
I think maybe its time to untwist, redirect, and find a better support system.
Maybe its time to find a more solid ground? 
Or perhaps its time to practice dancing again.......


Sunday, August 14, 2016

Forget all the reasons why it won't work, and believe in the one reason why it will.......

"Forget all the reasons why it won't work,
and believe in the one reason why it will."

Forget all the reasons why it won't work. 

Forget the fact that the average finishing rate of the Leadville 100 is historically less than 50%.
Forget the fact that the cut-offs are unforgiving, with no room for error or misjudgment.

Forget the fact that the race is at high altitude from start to finish,
and that every breath leaves you feeling like you are running at tempo pace. 

Forget that you will experience rough terrain, 6 mountain climbs and 2 river crossings. 
Forget the dry mountain air, and the possibility of drastic temperature change ( while you have been acclimating to 105 temps with 75% humidity).

Forget the fact that you had 2 DNF's this year; stitches in your knee after a bad fall,
and that you have a touch of tendinosis in your left ankle.

Forget the fact that it will be extremely emotional, that you are carrying baggage in your hands and in your heart. That its going to hurt in so many ways.......

And believe in the one reason why it will......
Because you are never alone in this journey. 
You are supported, loved, and carried by the wings of angels
who know that in your element- you are powerful beyond belief. 

Friday, August 5, 2016

Think Less, Feel More

"Get out of your head and into your heart. 
Think less.  Feel More."

You think too much!
As you glide over rocks and roots, through rivers and canyons

When the sun burns your face and the wind teases your hair
Unleash joy.

Taste Life!
When the wine burns your throat and your head is a carefree buzz
Be intoxicated.

Be Present!
Touch. Kiss. Skin on skin.
Revel in pleasure.

Let go!
Your brain is the fucking devil.
Your heart knows the truth. 

You can do it.
I know you can.