Esther and Jerry Hicks
Thursday morning, I woke up tired and in a pissy mood. I thought I could shake it off as I usually do, but on the ride to work I found tears welling in my eyes and then rolling down my cheeks.
Jorge and I joke sometimes that we don't want to "adult" today, but it was worse than that.
More than anything- I wanted time alone.
I love my job. I work with a talented team of trainers and we have each others back. My clients give me their best energy every day, and I enjoy hearing about their lives and challenges. I am excited and energized most days of the week.
It's not my job....It's me. Because believe it or not I am an introvert. I need time alone to process all the emotion that I internalize every single day. It's no secret that the reason why I can spend so many hours alone in the water, or on the bike, or on a trail is because I like doing so. Engaging with others is my gift, but I am energized by time alone.
On my way to work it became very clear to me that I have not spent any time by myself in months. I've come to learn that negative emotion is just a sign that you are not on the right path to what you really do want. It's like a warning signal. "Danger Will Robinson- You're going down the wrong path." So instead of enduring needless suffering I took the warning. I rescheduled my evening clients, skipped out on a meeting and I headed to the trails. In running and in nature I reconnected with my strong and capable body as I danced across the rocks and roots. I marveled at my intuition as I glided downhill. I celebrated my smiling soul, the sun stretching to kiss my shoulders in between the trees.
I found peace. I found relief. I let go of any guilt.
And that evening I slept.
Today I woke up at 3:30am to meet my first client at 5. I am a new woman, motivated and empowered, because this time I LISTENED to my beckoning soul.
It's all about continuously writing a new story for myself. One where I feel really, really good.