Monday, August 22, 2016

When your body gives you the finger.

"Fall down seven times- get up eight"
Japanese proverb

It's been a nose dive year of racing for me.  Literally.
A freak twisted ankle on an easy 3 mile run right before Bandera lead to my first ever DNF.
The next race I entered landed me with 5 stitches in my right knee and DNF #2.
Most recently, just weeks before Leadville, tendinitis creeped into that same ankle leaving it pissed off and swollen; and I was forced to swallow DNF #3.
3 races- 3 DNFs
.
So...... It makes you wonder what the hell is going on? Why do I keep tripping and falling?
What happened to the agile dance that used to come so naturally? What is my body trying to tell me?

Our ankles hold our entire weight, so perhaps if that load is too much- they simply collapse. . Maybe my left ankle has been holding up the red flag of surrender for 8 months now, and it finally said "Fuck you Jennifer.  I'm done."

We know that fear, insecurity and emotional overload manifests in our body.
I think maybe its time to untwist, redirect, and find a better support system.
Maybe its time to find a more solid ground? 
Or perhaps its time to practice dancing again.......

 





Sunday, August 14, 2016

Forget all the reasons why it won't work, and believe in the one reason why it will.......

"Forget all the reasons why it won't work,
and believe in the one reason why it will."
Unknown


Forget all the reasons why it won't work. 

Forget the fact that the average finishing rate of the Leadville 100 is historically less than 50%.
Forget the fact that the cut-offs are unforgiving, with no room for error or misjudgment.

Forget the fact that the race is at high altitude from start to finish,
and that every breath leaves you feeling like you are running at tempo pace. 

Forget that you will experience rough terrain, 6 mountain climbs and 2 river crossings. 
Forget the dry mountain air, and the possibility of drastic temperature change ( while you have been acclimating to 105 temps with 75% humidity).

Forget the fact that you had 2 DNF's this year; stitches in your knee after a bad fall,
and that you have a touch of tendinosis in your left ankle.

Forget the fact that it will be extremely emotional, that you are carrying baggage in your hands and in your heart. That its going to hurt in so many ways.......

And believe in the one reason why it will......
Because you are never alone in this journey. 
You are supported, loved, and carried by the wings of angels
who know that in your element- you are powerful beyond belief. 





Friday, August 5, 2016

Think Less, Feel More

"Get out of your head and into your heart. 
Think less.  Feel More."
Osho

You think too much!
As you glide over rocks and roots, through rivers and canyons
Delight. 

Relax!
When the sun burns your face and the wind teases your hair
Unleash joy.

Taste Life!
When the wine burns your throat and your head is a carefree buzz
Be intoxicated.

Be Present!
Touch. Kiss. Skin on skin.
Revel in pleasure.

Let go!
Your brain is the fucking devil.
Your heart knows the truth. 

Trust.
You can do it.
I know you can.




Think Less, Feel More

"Get out of your head and into your heart. 
Think less.  Feel More."
Osho

You think too much!
As you glide over rocks and roots, through rivers and canyons
Delight. 

Relax!
When the sun burns your face and the wind teases your hair
Unleash joy.

Taste Life!
When the wine burns your throat and your head is a carefree buzz
Be intoxicated.

Be Present!
A touch.  A kiss.  Skin on skin.
Revel in pleasure.

Let go!
Your brain is the fucking devil.
Your heart knows the truth. 

Trust.
You can do it.
I know you can.