“There is freedom waiting for you,
On the breezes of the sky,
And you ask "What if I fall?"
Oh but my darling,
What if you fly?”
― Erin Hanson
It's 4:30 am. I'm wading my feet in the water at the edge of the pool, glazed eyes staring at the glassy water.
My legs are heavy from yesterday's workout and I shiver at the thought of getting in the stinging water, so I sit.
It's 4:40 am. I should get going. I lower myself warily into the water. It's not so bad, so I take a deep breath and dive in. My breathing soon becomes rhythmic and predictable- strong even, and I am swimming.
Making that first move is always the hardest, and recently I have found myself just sitting there on the edge of unpredictability. This swim, run, new job, relationship, (insert any part of your human being here) could after all be a complete failure. I'll be working on commission, what if I'm not as good as I think I am? It requires a move. What if I'm making a mistake? What if I find myself alone again?
Paul Boynton, author of Begin With Yes, posted on Facebook this morning that "taking an action, no matter how small, sets things in motion. Motion, no matter how small, means you are engaged with your life and making things happen. Don't wait. You will never have all the answers because each answer creates a new question. There is a sweet rhythm here when you remember that one question, one answer, that is how life unfolds."
So, even though the water is cold, I choose to dive in with gratitude for new opportunity. I choose to set things in motion. Another leap of faith that by engaging in life, I will be swimming steadily soon enough.